My Lips Are Sealed For Her,

junior year

My junior year is over and there’s so much to say about this year. This year was different than any other year I’ve had. Everything in my life changed and it’s going to continue to change. It was everything. It was my school life, it was my family life, and it was my relationships. This year, I’ve lost my best friends. I had three coming in and none of them coming out. Truth be told, I’m so glad they’re out of my life. Ridding them of my life has lighten so much weight on my shoulders and considering what I have had to go through this year, it was quite the advantage. Now I have the best friends in the entire world and I wouldn’t  change them ever. They are everything I love and everything that makes me happy. They are so beautiful, so talented, so supportive and I appreciate them to the fullest.

School has never been so hard and I’ve never given up this much. I didn’t study for any of my second semester finals and my grades have never been so low. This will be the first time in my life I haven’t gotten at least a 3.5. 3.5 is my lowest GPA ever. The thing is, though, that I was just so tired. Every other week was tough tough tough. I had three quizzes/tests at least once a week and I just got so tired of studying. I stopped understanding so much in my classes and everything just got so difficult. A lot of my year was just tests. I didn’t really have projects or anything fancy like that.

• French III: I loved this class. Sure, sometimes it was boring and put me to sleep but it was the one class I never had to worry about. I loved my group so so much. Christina, Morgan, and Leo. I couldn’t have possibly gone though that class every single day without them. They made my mornings even if I didn’t make theirs. They made me laugh, smile, all right every day. I also love my teacher, who was also my French I teacher. I love talking to him and everything about him. I’m going to miss this class so much.
• U.S. History: This class was such a crap class from the very beginning. The only thing I liked about this class were the people. I liked the people a lot. Half of the class slept and the other half was nice and pretty fun. I was glad I got a class with Sabrina this year and I got to know Sarah. This will be my least missed class, but I did like the people! I really did.
• Physiology: THIS CLASS. This class has to be my most unforgettable class because I hated hated hated this subject. Physio was so so difficult for me because I just hate the subject so much. The thing is, however, was that I loved this class. I loved the people, I loved my teacher, and I loved the activities we did. I loved the people sitting next to me and my group and lab partner. I loved the labs. How I would come in the class after breaks and feel like crying because that class made me really feel icky. When we had our finals day and we just played Xbox and cards for two hours. That class was just the class I loved to hate. And to be completely honest, I wouldn’t doubt it was actually my favorite.
• Algebra II: There is nothing I can possibly say about this class. Okay, there is. I very much learned how to appreciate and like my teacher. I had him freshman year and he wasn’t my favorite. He’s the same pretty much but I really do like him. This class was hard as hell and I got C’s and below on all of my quizzes. I liked a lot of lessons I did, however, even though I forgot every single one after the quizzes. The people were terribly annoying and this class wasn’t my favorite, but I did not dread it either. It was math and it fit. Also, I sat next to this boy I had a monster crush on freshman year.
• English 3: Oh my gosh I can never forget this class. My teacher was just crazy. I have so much to say about her. She’s like the biggest hypocrite and ignorant and biased person I know. But somehow through all of it, she is pretty likeable. She’s really thoughtful and compassionate and she really meant well. But she was just crazy! I loved my friends in this class and after a while it’s just a class you got used to. The novels we read, the conversations and discussions we’ve had, the projects we’ve had to do. The essays and tests. Everything about it.
• Sociology: This was my favorite class. I loved the subject and was completely taken over by it. It’s what I want to major in now. I loved my teacher, the most random, weirdest person I’ve ever met. He was brilliant and great. My friends how I loved them so much. I loved the group projects we did, the presentations, the skits. Everything everything about this class I loved dearly. I’m going to miss it so much.

And how that I’ve done a recap on all of my classes, I want to cry.

Today was a great day.

Finished my French announces, my physio class was listening to One Direction and I got to watch One Thing from far away but it didn’t even matter because I was playing the music video in my head anyways, I was very productive today, and my team won and I am pumped!!

I always feel like going out with my family and hanging out with them and my friends is always more important than school work

until it becomes the end of the weekend and I have done nothing and have everything to do.

today

• French class was just cute. My whole group was gone because they had the U.S. History AP Exam to take today so it was just me. I didn’t bring my book today, so I shared with Jeevan. When I pushed my desk closer to his, I accidentally smashed his fingers and he was like “SHIT FUCK SHIT SHIT SHIT” and we laughed about it all class period. We had to look through our book to find the pages of culture in our book and we were just laughing and sitting next that boy does things to me. Yes. 
• Seriously don’t even remember what happened 3rd, 4th, and 5th. 3rd I just worked on our study guide for our final, math is math, and fifth period I almost cried because my teacher talks so damn much she drains the energy out of me.
• Had lunch with my favorite teacher. 
• And socio was socio.
• Went to Alyssa’s for a bit and we watched Dark Shadows! I liked it, but it was beyond creepy! But it was good and I enjoyed it!
• And last but not certainly not least, but team. They’re hurting my heart.

• math
• english
• sociology
• french

Yes? I think so…

sorry prioritizing

• math
• english
• french
• history

• math first
• english second
• history
• then french

yes

today

After eight hours of sleep, I have my mind back. Yay!

• During and before my math class, I’m going to study for my test today I refused to study for last night.
• I’m going to finish my physio study guide and I’m studying for that crap tonight.
• And I swear, I’m going to look at that mink packet.
• And I’m going to do a French announce.

And that’s all I’m promising myself today.