I love them because how could you not love the things that kept you there? Kept you standing, trying, and believing? There are that to me. They make me love the thing I don’t by just being beside me. They keep me there. If I were a roof, they were the wall. If I were a wave, they were the wind. If I were earth, they were gravity. And I love them. I love them so much. How can I not? Saying goodbye would hurt nobody but me because I’m loving them while they’re putting up with me.
I guess I’ll talk about my dream even though it’s almost time to sleep.
You were in my dream. I don’t know why, though, because I don’t even miss you that much dearly. But you were in there and guess what? You were playing games with me. How funny, even in my dreams you’re playing with me. But your smile, your eyes, my heart it beat for you. You were playing games but I still loved you so much. I would’ve done anything for you even with your stupid smile with your lying eyes, you asked to be mine. I did, of course I did for you.
We were friends. Tell me why she and I are always friends everywhere else except for in the real life. We were at a playground or a park or something. I told her I was having problems.
“With who?”
“Umm,” hesitant because I know you two had a thing, “*your name*.”
“Oh, I like him!”
And I think I told her everything, but I’m not even sure.
And this doesn’t make sense at all, but this was my dream.
favorite things said today:
- -Something about s’mores- “Yeah, I’m glad I thought of it!”
- You’re not Raven
- Beth #4
- Singing “Sleepyhead”
and other things I cannot think of :)
I live in one of the most diverse places in the world and I take it for granted. I’m in love with all the different kinds of people. I love listening to them speak, how they talk to each other, how they solve problems—I’m so captivated by how different people act.
This week I’ve been surrounded by these group of kids and I can’t say I don’t like them because I like them so much. They’re not the smartest kids and they don’t speak intelligently, but the more I’m around them, the more I believe in them. The more they grow on me. And I want them so badly just to be successful because I can see that in them.
One of the things I like about myself is that I just don’t judge people. I keep an open mind and that changes me so much. I’m in love with people, more than I dislike them. Really observing people and giving them chances just makes me a better person.
I was absolutely inspired by how an idea turns into a building. There’s just so much to it. Every step, every detail. There are so many details it’s unbelievable. The plans they have to make. I loved the plans and how and what they figure out to change to make better. The buildings on the wall—malls inspired by earthquakes and dragons. Every little change changes the whole entire concept and it’s beautiful. Architecture is wonderful.
Just give me time to myself and let me watch my favorite boy band, clean the day out of my hair, and eat my favorite meal
and I’ll be okay. I promise I’ll be better.
I wrote this around 11 something
my day in The City
I went to San Francisco with my family. I woke up this morning to “Runaway” by Kanye West and was wondering why in the world my sister would play music this loudly at this time of this day. Figures, I only had thirty minutes before we left. I love driving to San Francisco. It makes me super excited because I love the city so much. I’m extremely grateful that I live in the Bay Area. So walked to Pier 39 and had lunch. I had a burger. We went on a sailboat ride and it was the highlight of our day! The sailboat was super tiny but it was absolutely perfect. We were riding with the waves and I was getting a little wet. The host of the boat was hilarious and dry and the people on the boat especially my family were soo loud! It was wonderful. We walked the pier and I got a Buster Posey shirt and I’m very much excited about it! I also caught Belt’s triple on the TV! I hella love Belt. We walked to the Ghirardelli building and this was this super cute shop and it was so me and perfect. We walked to the Ferry Building and got some snacks.
Today was perfection.
I knew I shouldn’t have listened to Taylor Swift, particularly this song, because all it does is remind me of you. It’s funny because we were none of the things, but when you’re in love with a song you love everything that was happening around that time. I loved this song when I loved you and it’s everything about you.
—I’m just going to stop there.
These super cool marshmallows :)
