Sixty or so degrees, clouds formed in the sky making shapes I can imagine a hundred, winds. I am transformed and I am unafraid. I have things to do, I won’t be alone. I have plans this time, I’ll see my friends. I have other things to love, I don’t need you anymore. I won’t be expecting a text and I won’t be wondering what you’re doing. Last time, I refused to read. I don’t remember why, but it made me sad. Everything made me sad. And then I met someone new, someone I won’t be meeting again. I want to feel their presence because such presences make me feel a feeling that doesn’t come very often. I miss those bike rides, visits to the beach, and those ping-pong matches. For some reason I don’t think I’ll be getting those again. I don’t know if I’m in denial or embracing the change. I’m moving on and getting older and these changes are supposed to happen. I’m not supposed to be afraid, so I’m not. I’m all right.
I will never be in love with anybody who doesn’t make me a priority. Not anymore.
It was as if I traded everything in my life for things that were better and brighter and actually made me feel good about myself.
I need to stop being afraid of who I am. I need to stop thinking that it’s not okay to be who I am. If I’m too much into fiction, society, and my emotions then, what the hell, what is wrong with that? If I want to smile, make an appearance, dance, or do anything I feel like doing that, then I will. So freakin’ tired of this.
I literally feel like weight has been lifted off my shoulders. My heart is beating faster, my smile will not leave my face, and my mind is as peace with my heart and it is April 1, yes, but I’m not fooling myself. Not anymore. This is me moving on. This is me knowing my time is coming. My time is coming and I better get ready.
I’m glad we’re not best friends anymore.
When you see a girl and wonder why you ever felt inferior, intimidated, and insecure to, by, and because of her.
for reasons I will never know and no longer care about
all that matters is that it is over and I am done.
Done.
I guess I really did mean it when I said I was going to stop taking the easy way out of things.
Never regretting the decisions I make because I know how to make the right ones.
