Sometimes I don’t know what to think of myself. I like to tell myself that I’m a good friend and that I try really hard and that I treat my friends the best that I can, but I can’t come around to believe it. I’m always afraid when my friends say something good about me and the impact I have on them because I know one day they won’t mean it. I know that one day I will do something that will disappoint them. Maybe I’ll change right before their eyes or I’ll say something or do something they won’t ever expect from me. That’s my problem. I care too much. I’m always afraid of disappointment and I try too hard to be perfect. I’m not the best friend ever and it scares me that I’m not.
And I don’t know the point of this post, but okay.
